12:05 PM | Wednesday, November 08, 2006
things gotta go through the hard way.
rahh.don't feel like blogging today.damn.hais.nvm,since i come to blogger i shall use it then.(:okay,met up with gary and jer at khatib.late,as usual de lah.no t-shirt lah!met chongling at yck then jianyi at bishan.lols.he always at the end,while we are always in the centre.went dhoby ghaut.went plaza sing ljs to lunch first.then headed to cathay.bought my BRAZILIANO!eh like i wear damn gay!see how lah,will get use to it de.chongling bought a cartoon havaianas.as in the sole is cartoon lah!send chongling back to mrt and back to cathay.wanted to watch deathnote,but si jerome.don't want watch lah!then other shows also not really that nice.maybe watching step up or materials girls on thursday.went they premiere.haha.then decided to go job hunting,but i don't need one.pei them loh.went vivo first.so many also cannot.then went toa payoh.finally kfc,but then world of sports(doubt so),then shihui called gary that they got flyers job.so yeah,like 3 people shared for 2 people job pay.then went home,cause gary and jerome wants to watch goong,they say what today episode very nice.but i like the songs only lah!going to play basketball tomorrow morning with that two gays again.then they go job,pangseh me at home lah!fine lah!kidding!(:after reading your blog,i guess you want me to hate you.and go back to my old life.but you didn't know,my whole life have been like that.since the first day i am born,there was something different about me from other people.i lead with a sad,lonely life.okay,you think i am not sparing a thought for you.okay,whatever it is,i do.while,you say i am not a devoted guy.yes,thats was the last time clarence ong.the now clarence ong,changed.is something you didn't take note.fine,whatever it is,you just want me to forget you and start go back.i am afraid that its too late.i can't do it.i don't mind suffering alone rather then hating you and forgetting you.but you want me to do that?really,i can't put myself to it.i did lots of heart searching already,i seriously yes i do love you.you just love him.i just wanna love you,i don't need you to stead with me or something.i just wanna love you,simple.go ahead and love him.i just don't care.but why did i choose you over the millions of better gurls?cause i know you are the one in my life.i am sorry that i made you cry.i truly am.you didn't harm me.okay,i gotta admit,i may force you to love me.all this is beacuse of me,not you.i started everything.sorry.you didn't harm me.never.i had only one person in mind,no matter what.i continue to wait.just don't care me.just pretend that i get out of your life already.no matter what,you carry on with your life i shall carry on with mine.but i have only one thing in mind,i love you.i am getting pissed,rahh.damn!thats why i don't feel like blogging today.tell me,instruct me,guide me.i dreaded.